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[hedalexa]

[Inbox Lexa, she'll never expect it.]

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[hedalexa]

I am. You have been notably more scarce.

Did something happen?

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Huh, shit yeah, that is you.

Nah, not really, I woke up in the lake a coupla days ago. I was just figurin' out who was still here.

[hedalexa]

Should it not be me? I didn't even scold you yet.

So you went home, or did you just pass out with the mermaids?

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Nah, nah, no need for that. I was just checkin'. Been a while since I heard your voice. S'kinda weird.

Yeah, I went home for a coupla months.

[hedalexa]

...you didn't die, did you?

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Nah.

Broke a coupla bones 'nd nearly died fightin' a death bird, but, no near misses.

[hedalexa]

Good.

Death bird? I assume you are restored, being here. The fey didn't meddle with you otherwise did they?

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Yeah. An Epy-pith-ling. [Epithling; a harbinger of death under dreadful circumstances.] I healed up the normal way before I came back.

Can't hear the pack any more 'nd I can't hear Chico either. 'Nd I can't turn wolf. So that's fuckin' irritating.

[hedalexa]

I guess you've got your work cut out for you. You love being able to change.

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Yeah, well, I don't feel right unless I can.

[Even being denied Crinos made her uncomfortable. But it was managable with glabro and lupus.

But look at her, communicating her feelings. Magic.]

I'm glad you ain't gone. Not just 'cos of your home situation. But I'd miss you if y'were gone.

[hedalexa]

I could ask for it back for you. I do not often ask them things, I am sure my point tally is higher than I would like.

I'm glad you came back.

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Nah, it's cool. You know what I'm like; I earn what I have.

[Even if that means participating in their games.]

Yeah, me too.

Uh, do me a favour? Don't tell Rowan or Silent 'bout me wolf if they ask? I don't want them goin' underhand to fix it for me.

[hedalexa]

I wasn't going to plaster it on the werewolf treehouse wall, Ren. I keep your secrets, for the most part. Dumb things you say to me when we're fighting don't count.

[ragesagainsttheodds]

No, I know y'do.

'Nd you got every right t'vent. I was...

I've been learnin' to not be as much of a prick. When I was back home. Been doin' a lot of learnin'.

[hedalexa]

It sounds like you've been through a lot. If you wish to speak of it, I am always here.

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Kind of. But kind of not really compared to what other people go through, so...

I dunno, feels weird bitchin' to you when you've been through way worse.

....

I got a new tattoo. [Yep, we've reached Ren's limit for emotional maturity.]

[hedalexa]

Suffering is not a competition. That mine may be greater doesn't invalidate yours.

And you haven't flashed me with it yet? You did do some learning back home. What is it?

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Stags Head - on me wrist. Ain't nowhere excitin'.

Got it at Beltane. I was drunk 'nd I was tryin' to make friendly with Colin, but, you know I ain't so good with m'words 'nd it got awkward 'cos of something Siobhan said to us both.

[All these names that Lexa has zero context for.]

But he got put in kinda a shitty position 'cos he's a bit different tot he rest of us. So, we got matchin' tattoos. He said he didn't want the eyes, but I thought it was fuckin' cool, but it was his first one so, I let him pick.

[hedalexa]

[Sure Ren, we'll just go with she tooootally follows that. Uh huh.]

Different? Like Milla?

That is a kind gesture, a meaningful one.

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Yeah, different like Milla. He didn't have a choice in it. She don't either.

[And while on a societal level there's not a lot that Ren can do that stand up to that on her own, she can do small things like this.]

Yeah. Well...everyone was being a dick to him. 'Nd I didn't like that.

[hedalexa]

I know. I spoke to Milla about it when she discovered the raccoon thing and then my blood, she tried to say I was one too. Sort of.

[Look at you, little wolf all grown up. Huh.]

It was the right thing to do.

[ragesagainsttheodds]

[Despite all that learning and growing she's been doing it does kind of piss off Ren to hear that Silent had said that about Lexa. Lexa wasn't a metis. She just wasn't human. There's a difference.

Whatever, this is the stuff she's trying to shake off so she opts not to comment about it.]

There's other shit that goes with it. My tribe don't really treat 'em well, 'nd Colin is a Fianna too.

Anyway, whatever, cool new tattoo. I learnt to drive, but it ain't as if there's any fuckin' cars here.

[hedalexa]

[Milla wasn't great about nuance and Lexa wasn't inclined to hold it against a wolf who had seemingly been told her whole life that she was an abomination. Besides, she had mostly got it in the end.]

I don't think anyone needs you driving in a realm that is mostly trees and very little flat ground.

But showing Colin you cared for him and that he is part of your clan is no small thing. [Lexa sounds positively proud, even if she's not entirely sure she knows who Colin is outside of him being a metis.]

[ragesagainsttheodds]

Wouldn't be the first tree I've accidentally murdered. [And definitely won't be the last.]

Yeah. Well. I didn't really get how bad people like him 'nd Milla get it.

I dunno. My pack are...[There's no polite word.] fuckin' weirdoes. I always thought I would get the best pack ever but...they need me to stand forward for them. S'the whole reason I left home in the first place. If I wanted it easy, I would have stayed home.

I met a ghost horse too. He was cool.

[hedalexa]

More concerned about the tree murdering you. Some of them are as thick as a tower.

Are they not the best pack ever? [Asks Lexa, a leader who often didn't like her people but wouldn't hesitate to shed blood for them.] Weirdos are kind of your thing.

...ghost horse?